I'm sorry for taking so absurdly long to write. Not gonna lie! It's been a whirlwind of a few weeks! Yeehaw!
To start, I had to let go of something that I'd been holding on to for years. A hope, a desire, perhaps a need for security (and by perhaps I mean oh most definitely!). I spent a long time battling with myself mentally to gain the courage to finally do it, but I did it. I let go of something that was gripping my heart tight, holding me back from carrying on in my life and becoming the person I truly want to be. It hurt in the moment, but immediately afterward I felt light and a huge relief. It wasn't intoxicating my life anymore.
To make my life more interesting, the next day I realized that certain negative experiences that had happened to me in the last couple of years were exponentially more serious than I had thought. At the time of the negative experiences, I hadn't understood fully what had been going on so I brushed it off, but I never got over any of the experiences and had felt wounded from them. Once it had been made aware to me what had actually happened and the reason to why I was reacting to certain situations now was so freeing. It made it possible for me to heal and know what I was healing from, instead of consistently wondering whether I was crazy/responsible or not. It's incredible what forgiveness for others can do for your own heart. Thanks to my family and wonderful friends, I was able to do just that. I won't ever forget any of it, but I'm now in a position where I can think about it and no negative emotion or energy shows up.
It is so imperative for us to let go of any dark or negative emotions that have built-up in our systems. Some of these might be newer from more recent happenings or they might be dormant from experiences you had when you were a kid. Either way, it is critical to be aware of them and to follow through with the healing process.
Seriously, if you have any more questions or insights about this please ask me. I'm more than happy to explain further and help as much as I can. Taking yourself on is a mighty task, but essential for true happiness.
It was an interesting and difficult week, but holy toledo THE LESSONS!!! I was on a gnarly learning curve let me tell you!
This is a two part blog. This is the first one and since it is a tad heavier than part two, which is just straight up awesome and super exciting (!!), I shall end it here.
Here's a song that I listen to when I want my mind to clear and to feel centered again.
Peace and love my amazing people. Linds.
